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I wished i nv liked you and continued treating you as a fren. it's been a year plus.
those are the good, but painful memories. i think i will rmb them for a long long while.
Reality strikes hard.
I used to wish that one day , just one fine day, things will go back. but i no longer wish for tht anymore, bcz i know it's no longer possible and i guess u rather let things be, and i fully respect ur decision, as long as it makes you feel better and u prefer it.
It's only when you lose something, then you realise how dear it meant to you, but when it was there, you took it for granted and opted for risks, knowing exactly the consequences, but being reckless then, you were willing to forego everything for that tiny bit of false hope you had in you, and then when it doesn't pay off, you do everything that you can to try to put things back to what they were, but with every thing that you try, you make things worse lil by lil until things finally snapped, and you can only look back, and wonder what it could had been, if you took things slowly; or even if you decided to remain as friends, because deep down you yourself know that you treasured her so much and didn't want to make things awkward which was the most likely scenario, or even lose her as a fren, like deja vu, you do know that there was no chance that she liked you, you - a nothing, it was just a one way road that led to a dead end eventually, but the stubborn you chose to defy what you so clearly knew for that impossible scenario, yes, the foolish you decided to drop her so many hints that she became scared of you, the retarded you decided to write crap in her bday gift, and yes, you, who persisted on giving her the vday gift when there was still time to retreat and when she gave you the option to do a u turn, but NO, you`chose to go full steam ahead, hitting so many brick walls along the way, hurting her and yourself along the way, but you continued on ur route, hoping for the way out somehow, but obviously, you had already lost your plot; you made things difficult for her when you didn't had to, you thought you were being nice to her but you were so damn fucking selfish all this while, caring only for your own feelings while neglecting hers, thinking that she owed you smth, you - the fucked up you decided to send her those long texts that sealed the nail in your coffin, and you - the sad you, that foolishly got distracted during the A levels and the preparation period thinking all about her, probably distracting her as well; you decided to bother her friends as well, thinking that it was no big deal, but actually little did you know that they perceived you as an ass as well...you, who missed out on the once-in-a-lifetime JC2 year that was supposed to bring so much fun and hope at the beginning of 2011 because you were so cooped out in your own world... lastly, you, who now regrets everything when you have nth left, and you wished that you didnt exist because you are so full of hatred for this you. but you have nth left, except to store those memories in a small locker at the back of your brain, lock it up with a key, only to open it up like Pandora's Box every now and then, but you know that you dont want to lose all these memories because they once meant so much to the past you, and so much more to the present you.
Saturday, 25 December, 2010
(10:48 PM) waikit: YEA
i am kinda looking forward to prom nxt year
hehes
(10:51 PM) waikit: idk
gt the feeling
i think times flies v fast leh
:/
and i got my wish, but then now i wished that it didnt come so fast. it's ironic isn't it? hah.
seeing all these logs remind me of e times tt i called u boss. i forgotten all abt it, but now it all starts flowing back, those were the times where i felt really happy talking to u, where i felt i could talk to u abt anything, where i looked forward to talking to u whenever possible, albeit virtually, because you always made my day and i felt that i could share my worries and thoughts with somebody who was willing to entertain me.
but then it all went wrong, because i asked for too much.
Tuesday, 21 December, 2010
(12:06 AM) waikit 224: wad willu do when u angry!!
eh..
actually nothing
but you can dont expect me to talk to you for...
LOL
as long as im still angry!
i didnt expect it to come true then. hah.
i guess i wouldn't find another person like you for a long long time, even in my life.
but still, thanks for all the memories and everything.
i wish you neednt been so drastic.
nights world. 13 feb 2012. how times flies. the next time i post, maybe i would have alrdy come out of army. maybe i would have changed. who knows.
Sunday, January 22, 2012
it's been a long way on this road, and i am trying hard to forget, i am trying to fill up all my days with work and stuff so i wont think abt it anymore. but i really dont want to lose all contact i guess. but there is really nth much i can do.
Wednesday, December 28, 2011
forgetit, this isn't gg to work. 连朋友都这么辛苦。its equally stressful to me. not gg to try anymore.
Tuesday, December 20, 2011
its only three weeks since jc ended. but i already super miss the life alrdy. and the ppl :/ and u.
Wednesday, August 10, 2011
i wish.. i wish.. but really, whats the point.
i miss the times where we could talk. somehow i wish(again) that things wont b as bad.
wishes...
Friday, July 29, 2011
it's when you lose smth then you realise how dear it was to you, but you took it for granted.
Sunday, July 17, 2011
In contemplating how to forgive someone, it may or may not help to express your feelings to the other person. If the relationship is important to you and you would like to maintain it, it may be very useful for you to tell the other person -- in non-threatening language -- how their actions affected you If the person is no longer in your life, if you want to cut off the relationship, or if you have reason to believe that things will get much worse if you address the situation directly, you may want to just write a letter and tear it up (or burn it) and move on. It still may help to put your feelings into words as part of letting go. People don’t need to know that you’ve forgiven them; forgiveness is more for you than for the other person.
'People don’t need to know that you’ve forgiven them; forgiveness is more for you than for the other person.'
how can i gain your forgiveness. i really dk. i am so sry. but i no longer have a chance to make a change.
this is taking and sucking away so much from me.